Lesson and Signs

This year for me has been full of reflection.  Not sure if that is mid life or just the things that happened this year or both.  I really try and find the meaning of things and its not always easy to do.  I  look for signs to tell me things will be ok or give me strength to get through.  I was out with some friends Friday after work doing our weekly ritual of getting together to talk, laugh and and have some drinks.  I got a call from my neighbor that my building was on fire but that it was on the south side of the building.  I live on the north side.  Some workers who had been doing work on the roof accidently set the roof on fire.  I have been through a fire before so it was strange I didn't want to rush home because I didn't want to experience the trauma of seeing the building I live in flames as all the neighbors watch.  I knew no one was hurt so I decided to stay and enjoy my friends.  Some may think that is avoidance or denial but I knew I couldn't do anything and I would deal with whatever I had to when I returned home.  I was very lucky as others were not.  My condo only smelt like smoke and I didn't have electric for 12 hours.  I can handle that though it did bring back memories of the first time.  I woke up the next morning and went to my yoga class and the new art work on the walls were these paintings of beautiful birds.  There was also a really great thunderstorm during class.  Those signs brought me peace.  My friend Terry who is Jewish told me last night was the holiday Yom Kippur.  And that they fast after sunset and reflect on the past year.  I like that and hope that all that I experience with the support and love of my friends and family makes me a better and stronger person.